Hidden love

My mind always drifts to thoughts of you, hoping you are happy even when I have no clue.
I wonder if you know about these feelings I hold, sitting in my chair with my mind untold,
and when we leave the class I see your beautiful eyes, and regret to say a day's goodbyes.
But then I remember has I see your smile, that this school year will be the best for awhile.

A Memory Ten Years In The Making

I wrote this in honor of those that were lost to us during the 9/11 attacks. Though I can't remember much of what happened that day ten years ago, I still know those that were lost haven't been forgotten by those who they left.

An eighty-four year old man holds a candle for his childhood friend, who was still sweeping the floors. 
"Lest we forget."
A woman sets down a photograph of the last family portrait, taken less than a week before.
"I'll never forget you honey."
A young man carries a bouquet of her favourite flowers, as it was her first day of her new job.
"I will always love ya sis."
A ten year old boy stands before a crowd, talking about his father, who he had never met. 
"We will miss you."
Though the stories are different, the idea is the same
And though the backgrounds are different, the love is true
For those who are lost and those that were found. 
We all will remember no matter age
For those who are gone are never forgotten.

Under the stars

In the dark they decide to sit, seeing the stars bit by bit.
With the light the moon does show, the two young lovers sitting below.
All their worries being swept away, with only peace being the way.
Holding hands to show they're near, so the other will have nothing to fear.
In the dark they decide to sit, under the stars that are slowly lit.

Yeah........I'm working on my stories more and more now.

I've had such a serious case of writer's block that only near evening can I even write something remotely good. I have just finished a two page epilogue for Free Daughter of a Trapped Renegade. I started at around eight or so and finished at eleven. I'll see if I can maybe find someway to make my story go faster. Then, you will all get more poems. I'll try creating more when I'm going out. People watching is very useful.
Until then, Ciao!

Sight - (Written in ten minutes)

This poem deserves a bit of an explanation. I couldn't sleep, and this odd line appeared in my head. I just took a note on my iPod and started typing at around three in the morning. Don't know why this came up, but it seems my favorite quote is true. "You never had to change anything you got up in the middle of the night to write." Even though I didn't wake up, I just couldn't sleep. Sorry for the delay in this poem. Blocks and writers don't mix. Hope you enjoy! Even if the title sucks.

I see the sun going down beneath the mountains you like
I know the darkness will keep me awake into the long hours
You see the sun going down into a mass of clouds I love
You know the darkness my fear is born of
As the moon rises and disappears as the hours grown to the next day
I stay awake with your words
You stay awake with my replies
The darkness grows deeper as you slip away
My fears grow as you are gone

Tears fall down her cheeks, cold, new tears
Her  room becomes a dark mass
The last day of her sanity has gone
Never to be with the one who loved the mountains
Never to see the clouds she loved
Never to see the light saving her from her fear
For as he disappeared
So did her ability to see her world
The last day of sight her only memory

Sorry.. Again.

I have had writer's block for a while now, so sorry for not posting stuff in a while. I've been working more on my books then short poems. If I can, I'll post some bits and pieces of stories I'm working on.
If needed I'll work on my four drafts I have lying around since my views have been going down. I promise to post something by the end of today.

I have over 1,300 views!!

I feels so happy that People have been looking at my blog! My most viewed post is "If Only You Knew" and the countries that look at my blog the most are US and Russia. I'm posting this during our Espanol Game period, but if I wasn't I would post a brand new poem.

His Promise

I was in my little village tending to my garden
When he rode up on a horse, so perfectly white
He was just passing through to stay at our village of Arden
I had never seen a man who took my breath away.
He took one look at me and I could see
He felt the same way towards me
And he whispered these words in my ear
"Meet me in the shade of the river willow tree."
I met my knight that evening dark
He promised to take me away
Away to live together far to the horizon
"I will take you in the month of May."
As he rode off on a horse, so perfectly white
One day, I knew, he would return to me
As everyday I remembered his promise
To take me away in the month of May.
The month of May was halfway over
Yet, I waited everyday for the return of my lover
Trusting his promise
That he will come back to me
To be in his arms again.
And two years later
I see a far off white horse appear
With a rider trying to go a fast as he can
As he jumped down and picked me up and twirled me around.
"My dearest Lady, can you ever forgive me?"
I nod and we kiss each other for the first time
So I ride off with my knight.
Though he may not be the bravest
Or may not be the strongest
He is my knight who remembered and kept his promise
To return for me when he returned.

Minds problems.

It hurts to know your in pain,
It hurts to know how you feel,
I can't stop my mind from thinking of you.
All the saddness you must go through,
All the pain you must live through,
Yet I can't say the words out loud.
You have a life in your own world,
You have a dream you hold dear to,
I'm always screaming them in my head.
Why am I not strong enough,
Why am I to weak,
All I want to do.
Is to say I love you.

LET ME OUT!

You watch with glazed eyes
You don't see what is front of you
As I break under pressure
Breaking, cracking, until I collapse
I lock myself away
Screaming into the mirror
Crying at myself
Stop screaming!
As I look into my own eyes
Digustingly dark eyes
I wonder if I'd be missed
I'm ugly!I'm trapped!
I want help! I don't want to go!
Let me go, just let me dissapear
Everything would be better if I were pretty
My mask is hideous I'm hideous
Help me! Please!
Tears as I chop off my long bangs
I want to be free!
Help me!
Just a small haircut
The pressure broke a lonely soul
A soul that screaming for help.

Please Come Back

When will you return to me?

This world seems too big

This ocean too far to cross

As I stare across it,

Waiting for you to sail up with your smile

With stories of your adventures

Keeping me entertained through the night

When will you return to me?

Another day ends

Without you next to me

As I keep watching for you,

Never moving from my spot to watch

Seeing if you're back here again

My one only own

When will you return to me?

And when you've returned

I'll say those words

That you promised to say to me

And I already know my answer

To be together forever
So please come back
When will you return to me, my one only own?

Song Of The Battle Epilogue

I was brought before the King and his counsel
As I was found out for being a woman.
My face was behind a mask since the day you died
When they asked me why I went into battle
"I am a warrior"
When they asked me why I cried and screamed that day
"He died"
They were unimpressed by my lack of response
"I went into battle to serve instead of cower in a corner,
"I cried because I loved him!
"He knew I was a woman but still let me fight."
A soldier would normally have been sentenced to the stocks
For loving another soldier.
A woman would normally have been executed publicly
For being in the army.
Because of my victory and my valor, I lived
You were given a hero's burial on the field.
I built myself a house near a river and made myself a living in the village
As the years past, I walked everyday to see you.
The scars that were left on my heart that day haven't faded
I sit next to you on that field, telling you how much I love you
Though you can't be here with me.
The only place where I every remove my mask is with you
Where I can sit and talk to you with my real smile
Even though you are gone, I still sing my song to you.

Song Of The Battle Part 3 Final Act

Now you knew my secret, but nothing had changed
You still fought with me in the field,
My deputy by day and lover by night
We started to win the war,
And you were making plans to live together
"Let's live peacefully after all this war."
I agreed as the final battle approached.
We will win and be happy!
I led the troops with you charging down next to me.
We surprised the enemy and broke their ranks
As our killing and winning streak continued.
During the mists of the battle, you lost sight of me
I was off fighting the leader of our enemy,
While you were in my mind as I swung my sword and blocked his blows.
With a crash, I broke his sword and won this battle and war!
We signed our peace in paper and went off to spread our news.
Our army then went off to bury our dead
I hadn't seen you since that morning.
"Captain!" A cry came up from my page from across the field.
There you were. Blood on your clothes. Breathing low and shallow.
Forgetting my place, I dropped to the ground. "We won."
"You stay brave, Capt'n. You will keep living for me."
You lifted your hand to my face and held it by my cheek.
"Farewell. I love-"
As your hand fell down and nothing stirred,
Tears coursed down my face silently
Ignoring the soldiers that were looking at me
I screamed my anguish into the heavens
For taking you away from me.